The journey really has started....

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I intended to start these posts several years ago when I first started to notice changes in my short term memory. 

It was whilst I was still living in Reedness ie pre 2018 when I went to the doctor, asked for a standard memory test, and passed. No discernable memory loss.
But I knew my short term memory was starting to decrease. 

Last year I had several stumbles and actually fell a few times. 

Right now, I sometimes feel very unsteady on my feet. But I've not fallen.

In December 2022 I did have a proper fall.  It was a freezing cold day; early in the morning I had gone for a walk with Sue/Ben with my boots on - no problems. 

I came home and, still with my boots on, went out to the bin.

I slipped on the ice, my feet went forward, I landed on my bum but put my left hand out to save myself  and my wrist broke. 

(As a result of that, the doctor has put me down for a bone density scan but still nearly a year later) no sign of that. (and it cannot be done privately says the consultant who repaired my wrist).

So why am I writing this now? 

Because there are increasing signs of loss of brain function. 

Today I was emptying the used teabag from my cup. I opened the bin, poured the dregs of liquid into the bin and started to walk across to the sink with the teabag in my hand. 

When I realised what I had done I knew I had taken a really big step on the journey. 

Where I am today: 

I keep telling Trevor and the children that the journey has started, but they are not really hearing me. 

The symptoms are subtle, to be sure. 

My fingers are forgetting how to type, and I have to go back and correct myself continually.

But only I know that. 

I live by lists, reminder notes, and phone alerts.

I find it really hard to remember to do something a few minutes ahead. I constantly start to make Trevor a cup of tea and then totally forget to go back to it after it has had the requisite two minutes to steep. 

For work, I need to write down everything I need to do or else I totally forget it. 

When doing my work, I fid it impossible to keep things in my brain for a few minutes so take longer to keep going back to check rather than hold the details in my brain.

I've been keeping really good notes for some years now so I don't think it is apparent yet. (Like Wendy Mitchell while she was still at work). 

I've not yet forgotten how to drive anywhere, or got lost. 

So I'm functioning. 

But today was a milestone.